What a gorgeous night it once again is. You can see the stars clearly looking down at you, which makes you wonder if there is someone else looking up towards you. Maybe they are also facing similar issues and are wondering what has brought them out here in the middle of the night. Wasting their time just sitting around, which they could technically use to sleep or catch up on some work. No, just sitting here on a bench next to a lake, wondering what exactly it is that brought you out here. Loneliness mostly, but there are always many other reasons that would draw someone out into the beauty of the night.
“Well, I’ll be, if it isn’t you again?!” a familiar voice loudly proclaimed from my side. There she was again with a large smile on her face, as if she had no true worries in the world. “Once again silently sitting out here and staring out to the great sea!” Did she just call this lake a great sea? “At least today you seem a bit more tranquil than the other day’s moody appearance!” Moody appearance? “Look at you now! A completely different...” That long pause hurts a bit you know? “Actually, you still have that sour look on your face, but somehow you at least seem to be happy about something? Meet someone special?!”
Her eyes suddenly started to shine as bright as the stars above us. What a strange feeling it is to see someone light up about something they put into their own head. “Tell me something about her! Is she beautiful? Come on, any man would fall for a beautiful lady. Maybe she has the body of a goddess!” I wonder if she just wants herself to be that very person at this point? “I mean, I would never want to look for any competition. Should not bring out any ladies to this spot, they may become jealous of my very own beauty!” There it is! “Are you in love?
It is rather surprising how correct she was. I was in love, but not the way I wanted to be. No matter how much time has lingered, my heart still aches for someone I had left behind. How many years have passed and you still somehow haunt my dreams? I try my haredest to let go and I did so many years ago, but just sometimes you pop up out of nowhere. You remind me of the good and bad times that were left behind. There was nothing there since that day that would fill that void, which would allow me to ignore all those things that keep haunting me.
Is it because “...I feel so left behind?” she added before I even finished my thought. “You do have that look on your face, you are terrible at hiding it!” Many people tell me that, I should work on that a bit. “I am guessing it is someone that you once loved. Break-ups are always the hardest, but you just have to move on, huh?” She was right and it is my own fault for letting it get to my head, or rather my heart. Somehow it just isn’t easy to do, especially if you forget about it for some time until it suddenly jumps back at you. “Oh my, did I just see a smile on that face? I think you look more human with a frown! That is just very frightening if you do that!” She laughed so loud that you could probably hear it at the other end of the lake. She had such energy that it would make anyone a bit jealous how she can just be so full of life.
“You know, I just went through one as well a little while ago. Man, I was so sad to see it end, but we just weren’t anything alike at all. They say that counterparts attract each other, but we were just not in tune at all. I mean, he kept talking and talking like crazy, but did not say a single word.” Huh. “Yet, I did enjoy the time we shared. Maybe we just lived apart from each other after some time, I mean, even my routine needs to be freshened up now and again!” I have seen that look before, hiding everything you can with a great smile only allows you to let go now and then. For only a brief moment she showed the colours that were lingering below the surface. “Oh, look at the time. I need to get going!” Without hesitation she jumped up and started walking away, but only a few steps ahead she turned around and asked: “Hey, you be here again tomorrow?” After I nodded, she walked away in silence. It felt a bit lonely seeing her leave. After her strong voice echoed through the night, now all that I am left with is silence.